a strange exchange...

yesterday morning, i stumbled out of my house, half asleep, to embark on my morning walk. it wasn't until 15 minutes into my walk that i managed to mumble a "oh...hey, God...morning..."

i attempted to pray, but i really didn't feel like it, i'm tired of it...so i trailed off into mental introversion, once again.

and then, out of nowhere, this thing fell out of my mouth...

"how are you, God?"

what?? i just asked God how He's doing. not normal.

but i started thinking about it...

i realized that i'm sick of praying. i'm sick of talking about myself and my stuff...

really...it's not all that surprising. when i'm in relationship with someone, i'm not interested in listening to myself talk the whole time...and when i hear from them, i'm not interested in hearing only what they think of me.

but isn't that what we do to God? we either talk at Him about our stuff OR we listen expecting to hear what He thinks about us and has to say to us about our stuff. but do we ever listen just to hear His heart?

when i spend time with those i care about, the most important thing to me is hearing their heart, hearing about how they're doing and where they're at...to know them.

why would it be any different with this relationship?

simple but profound for me. our Father wants to be known by us, just as we want to be known by Him.

So...God...Creator of the Universe, Savior, Lord, Redeemer...how are You today? I wanna hear Your heart. I'm listening.