"'Cease striving and know that I am God.'
Psalm 46:10
...I've decided that if I had my life to live over again, I would not only climb more mountains, swim more rivers, and watch more sunsets...I would not only go barefoot earlier in the spring and stay out later in the fall; but i would devote not one more minute to monitoring my spiritual growth. No, not one.
...In retrospect, my ponderous ponderings on the purgative, illuminative, and unitive stages of my spiritual life, my assiduous search for shortcuts to holiness, my preoccupation with my spiritual pulse and my fasts, mortifications, and penances have wrought pseudobliss and the egregious delusion that I was securely ensconced in the seventh mansion of spiritual perfection.
What would I actually do if I had it to do all over again?
...I would simply do the next thing in love."
rather than fretting over unemployment, trying to work out all of the spiritual snags in my life and asking God repetitively what's next...i think i'll make this my new anthem.
i just want to "be" and tell Jesus that i'm available...to do whatever, whenever. and whatever it is, to do it in love.
